Mary, you made me a mom ❤️

Mary, you made me a mom first. The only thing I ever wanted to be. I never felt more blessed or proud than I was to be your mom. You were something extra special. Anyone who met you knew this. People who didn't meet you but just heard your story or saw your picture knew this. You gave off a special radiance and light only angels posses. You seemed to have wisdom and strength beyond your years. You walked to the beat of your own drum. You put others before yourself. I learned from you to be strong and brave and to never give up.  To love strong and hard and fierce. To take chances and go for my dreams. To be my true self and to not be afraid and express my feelings.
I now live my life to make you proud. I know we will one day see each other again. No one ever said this journey was going to be easy. I have learned to appreciate the things in life that are more difficult to achieve. I fought to have you and I fought even harder to keep you. I treasured every second I had with you on this earth. If more people valued the ones they love and the precious time with them the world would be a much better place. I think we made the most of our time together as short as it was.
I recently heard a theory that before we are born we choose our paths, the lessons we will learn and the journey we will follow.  If that is true then I gladly took on the job of being your mom. With that came all the joys, all the challenges and all the sadness that the job entailed. It also means you willingly decided to enter this earth, endure the cancer and the pain and chose to have your life end too soon. Why? If true I believe it would be to teach others well needed lessons as well. That life is short. To live by faith and not sight. To take nothing for granted. I know I don't regret my choice to be your mom and I never will. Ever. I would chose you every time. Being your mom will always be my greatest accomplishment. I always knew this would be my job from the first moment I could play with a baby doll. I was born to be a mother, your mother. I would choose you again and again. You completed me and I am forever grateful. Until we meet again Mary Elizabeth ...